Thursday, March 12, 2009

ang tagal na...

yes..ang tagal na..sobra. i am not certain if i missed blogging or not. i don't know..i just longed for the music of my fingers tapping against the keyboard.

sige na nga..aminan na to..

i got envious of grace's blog. it's utterly, utterly charming. and then from there, i started blog-hopping. masarap palang magblog hopping. it's like you get a glimpse of a stranger's insights, and the best thing is you get it from the best possible point of view--his own.

i had always been an avid reader, and blogs are no exception from my hobby. fan nga ako ng blog ni grace eh. hi grace!!!


and yes, let's hope i get to keep this blog rolling.
welcome, karen!!!

yaay me.

Friday, July 18, 2008

"Siyaman" King


This entry happens to contain my very first written report as a college student. I so want to have it preserved, imprinted and forever alive so I had it posted here. And I wanted you to read it of course.

It was eleven o' clock in the morning. Under the scorching heat of the Saturday sun, Mang Edilberto Palaypayon was yelling his throat dry with two simple words that may be said without so much effort: Antipolo and Junction. Beads of sweat were already forming on his brow, but he didn't take notice. He didn't even bother to use a cheap megaphone or even a cone-shaped cardboard to make himself heard.


“Eh, anung gagawin? Gan'to talaga 'yun,” he said when asked about the nature of his work. “Kesa gamitin ung kwarta sa kwan, eh 'di ipangkain na lang, 'di ba?. Malaki pa naman pamilya ko.”


The 49-year-old man fathers five children. The eldest is eleven years old while the youngest is only two-months-old. His wife, whose name he did not want mentioned, does a few laundry services for their neighbors who can afford to pay her. Eleven-year-old Mike always went with his father every Saturday to help him in his work. No, he was not shouting side by side with Mang Edel; rather, he was on the other side of the highway, begging people for alms. Sometimes, according to his father, Mike sells candies and cigarettes, tabloid newspapers, sampaguita garlands, round rags—basically anything to come up with at least fifty pesos. This happens every Saturday. But what about Mondays to Fridays? “Ay, ako lang. Ginagapang ko mga anak ko, eh. Si Mike kasi, kwan, Grade 2 pa lang. Nahuli siya. Kapos talaga kami.”


It was eleven thirty. Passengers were very scarce at this time of the day because mostly were having their lunches. Mang Edel's pronunciation of the word Antipolo had been shortened to 'Tipolo. One syllable off. That meant less throat works. So far, he had seven passengers sitting inside the humid jeepney. “Hirap talaga ng gan'tong oras. Lahat kumakain eh,” he said. He was laughing then, but he could not hide the fact that he too was starving. One could easily detect the progressively strong stench of hunger on his breath every time he spoke.


Then one lady alighted from the vehicle. She angrily told Mang Edel that she could not wait anymore. Manong driver scratched his balding head in irritation and cursed. “Nairita nanaman si Kuya Leo. Bumaba-baba pa kasi, eh,” Mang Edel commented.


Mang Leo, as it turned out, was his elder brother. He is Mang Edel's only source of income. In fact, according to Mang Edel, his brother was really reluctant in accepting him as a side-kick. They were both getting old and Mang Leo was not at all certain if his younger brother would be able to survive the harsh life on the dusty and polluted roads of Antipolo. Mang Edel proved his brother wrong and has stayed with him for thirteen years now. “Buti nga nandyan yang si Kuya, eh,” Mang Edel said.


He jokingly narrated that he had been to many unsuccessful careers before. He has a vocational degree in welding services and had tried using it to get a stable job. He failed for reasons he did not want to tell. He had served as a guard in M. Lhuiller Pawnshop. Again, he failed. He had tried selling taho and balut, then went back to being a security guard. He was fired, then he landed on his current job. “Nakakatawa nga, eh. Kahit may natapos ka, hirap pa din ng kwan, ng buhay,” he added.


The clock ticked on. It was already 12:15. Slowly, Mang Leo's jeepney became full with perspiring passengers. “Ay, salamat sa Diyos. Napupuno na din,” Mang Edel mumbled after waiting for what seemed like forever. He continued shouting, “Oy, Junction! 'Tipolo, Junction!” The jeepney was waiting for its last passenger before starting the long trip. At last, one came.


“Siyaman yan, siyaman. Makikiurong na lang po,” Mang Edel pleaded the passengers.


It was now full. The engine roared to life and they sped off, ready to wait for another one and a half hour at the end of the trip. Soon, Mang Edel's voice would be heard again.


“Siyaman yan, o. Siyaman!”


--the anchor

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Enchanted.


Have you watched Enchanted? It was simply the most romantic
film I've seen. No other film made me feel so love sick.It made me long for a true love's kiss. I wish, I were a princess in a far away castle and will be swept off my feet by a divorce lawyer. I wish I were Giselle herself. This was the first song in the film. It was a duet actually. You can search this on youtube.I urge you to watch it. It may be cheesy, but then again, it is sweet. It is immaculately sweet!

True Love's Kiss



TRUE LOVE'S KISS

When you meet this someone
who is meant for you
Before two can become one
there's something you must do

Do you pull eachother's tails?
Do you feed eachother seeds?

No, There is something sweeter everybody needs.

I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss
And a prince, I'm hoping, comes with this
That's what brings ever-aftering so happy
That's the reason we need lips so much
For lips are the only things that touch
So to spend a life of endless bliss
Just find who you love through true love's kiss

Ahahahaha Ahahahaha Ahahahahaha

Ahahahaha Ahahahaha Ahahahahaha
She's been dreaming of a true love's kiss
And a prince, she's hoping, comes with this
That's what springs ever-afterings so happy
That's the reason we need lips so much
For lips are the only things that touch

So to spend a life of endless bliss
Just find who you love through true love's kiss

You're the fairest maid I've ever met
You were made to finish our duet

And in years to come we'll reminisce

How we came to love

And grew and grew love

Since first we knew love through True Love's Kiss!

And I dreamed.

I dreamed of the weirdest dream.

I dreamed that my mother sold her soul to the devil all for the hopes of assuring my brother's slot in the UPCAT passers. "Para kayong tanga," I remember myself saying this in my sleep.

I dreamed of the scariest dream.

I dreamed that Kevin Gatchalian, my classmate and friend, was dead. I swear. I even saw him inside his own coffin. The left side of his head was swollen it looked like it was ready to burst anytime. I cried. Because inside that coffin was Kevin himself. It was Kevin. There was no mistaking in that. But the scene shifted, and panned, camera-like, on Kevin himself. Kevin was alive, after all. I told him, "Patay ka na, di ba?" And he said, "Joke lang 'yun!" He was laughing. What the fuck is that, huh? I didn't know whether I was the one who was dead when I was talking to a live Kevin, or he wasn't really dead.

I dreamed of the most romantic dream.

I dreamed that I was going to be wedded to a man. OF COURSE, A MAN. I don't know him in the real life, but in my dream, I was more than happy to tie the knot with him! In there, I felt like I had known him all my life. I seldom have colored dreams, but this one luckily fell into that category. I was wearing a pink taffeta bridal gown, and was holding sunflowers. A whole bunch of them. I was all ready to walk down the aisle, but many things interrupted the ceremony. I couldn't remember what they were, but I knew they happened. Louie was the best man. How's that? How's that? But in my dream, he wasn't at all affected. I don't know what the hell's wrong with the film of my dream, but everything fitted perfectly. Everything was simply perfect. Even the way my groom held my hand in his was perfect. And I was so happy.

I wish I would be able to have the second parts of these dreams.

I Am Love Sick


I feel so love sick. I just finished reading all the romantic snippets I could read from other creatures' blogs. When was the last time I held a boy's hand in mine? Can't quite remember. Before you get nosy, yes, issues with the other boy is over and long gone. Just don't ask any more questions, and kindly zip your mouths shut. Thank you very much.


I feel so love sick. It just sort of punched me right in the center of my guts.

Monday, June 23, 2008

barricading the national university


On the third day of classes in the hundredth year of the University of the Philippines (UP), a freshman from Cotabato province, a Chemistry major at UP in Diliman, Quezon City, had to drop out. Together with his father, the brokenhearted young man went to see each of his instructors to have his subjects invalidated.

While his Math 17 instructor was deleting his name from the class list, I could see the poverty, desperation, anger and sense of resignation in their faces. It was not the disappointment of winning the lottery and being denied the prize later. The young man is a member of a minority group in Mindanao. Without any connections and in the absence of any socialized admission policy, he qualified as a freshman in the College of Science of UP Diliman, a distinction he earned through intelligence, pure hard work and perseverance amid poverty. But in a few days, father and son are going back to Mindanao for good.

The father explained they could not afford the “socialized” tuition at P600 per unit for students in Bracket C, families whose annual incomes range from P135,001 to P500,000 per annum. The father and son expected to be in Bracket D, families with annual incomes ranging from P80,001 to P135,000. Students in bracket D pay P300 per unit.

UP president Emerlinda Roman seems to be disconnected from reality, or she must be fooling herself by insisting that the new Socialized Tuition and Financial Assistance Program (STFAP) is fair and proper for an “iskolar ng bayan” [scholar of the nation]. Her family should try living on P6,666.75 a month (which when multiplied by 12—the number of months in a year—equals P80,001, the lower bound of Bracket D incomes).

UP, no longer conscious of its role in society, chooses to ignore the long-term impact of offering greater genuine educational opportunities to the brightest among the poor, who are getting poorer amid the reported economic gains of the country. Socialized admission and tuition fee schemes do not lower academic standards. I’ve had countless students from public schools and far-flung provinces. They come to UP not as well prepared as their counterparts from the best schools in Metro Manila. But many later outshine the sometimes overconfident Manila-raised kids.

After the new STFAP took effect last year, UP is no longer an option for the brightest among the poor. I agree with the cab driver whose daughter qualified for UP Diliman, as narrated in Youngblood (Inquirer, 3/24/08) by Mariel Kierulf Asiddao, a UP Mass Communication student. The cab driver insisted it was ESTIFAK and not STFAP.

NOLI N. REYES, professor, Institute of Mathematics, University of the Philippines, Diliman, Quezon City


*From the Philippine Daily Inquirer, letter to the editor